Monday, August 4, 2008
The last month has been so crazy, I have been sick two of those weeks, gone to Tulsa to work on wedding stuff one week and gone to Ft. Worth to see Calloway (Cari and Mark too)! There have been days when I have felt like reading your blogs, but not posting. I thank God for blogging friends who love posting. You have been such an encouragement to me these past few weeks. Some of your words made me laugh and some made me cry, either way they have been medicine to my soul. The spiritual thoughts you share are truly an inspiration to me. I know some of you are going through very hard times and to see you smile through your words, gives me hope and joy to keep prodding forward when I don't feel strong enough on my own. These past few months my health and weight loss (28 lbs. in all) have been such a struggle for me. I know God is in control and He knows all things, but at times that still doesn't keep me from wondering what on earth is He doing? I am trusting God for X # of pounds before the wedding, and the first week I gained 2 and the next week lost one... but it IS coming!!! I know you are probably thinking who in their right mind asks God to help them gain weight, well this little skinny woman in the boonies of Northwest Arkansas does. When I gain it all back there will be a testimony and I am already excited when thinking about sharing it. God is such a miracle working God! So many times we ask for something and then miss it because we are either too busy, or we watch with "our" vision and don't see it. God promises us that he wants to pour out blessings from heaven. How many have we missed? It makes me sad to think of all I could have had if only I would have done.....whatever..... I am so thankful for His mercy and grace! I am blessed to be His child and to know he loves me unconditionally. And to think that those of you that I know who are reading this are my sisters in the Lord just thrills my soul. I was an only child until I was almost 14, and I remember being so lonely and wanting someone to play with, or talk to sometimes. And now God has blessed me with email friends, facebook friends, and blogger friends, WOW! I know we may never speak face to face, or on the phone, but being able to connect with you through this wonder called cyberspace is so great! Reading about you, seeing pictures of events in your life, sending and getting prayer requests-what an honor to be able to pray for someone, these are things I feel that are truly gifts. You never know how your life affects someone. Just remember that you are so appreciated and loved. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for being there. God bless you!